i have recently been introduced to foreign films and can’t get enough of them. not knowing what foreign movies to chose, i randomly selected, la vie en rose; mainly because i recognized the title. to my surprise, i made a wonderful choice. marion cotillard, who at the moment is my favorite actress, plays the part of the legendary, edith piaf. this a magnificant movie. i loved it! watch it.
la vie en rose
Hold me close and hold me fast
The magic spell you cast
This is la vie en rose
When you kiss me heaven sighs
And tho I close my eyes
I see la vie en rose
When you press me to your heart
I’m in a world apart
A world where roses bloom
And when you speak…angels sing from above
Everyday words seem…to turn into love songs
Give your heart and soul to me
And life will always be
La vie en rose
As you may or may not know, I have recently spent a few weeks in Florida. I appologize to those I did not make contact with while I was there. I just really needed some “me” time. It was all I dreamed it would be and more. The beach was so perfect. The sand so white and soft. The water blue green and clear; it felt so wonderful against my skin. It was the first time I’d been swimming outside two or three years!! That’s what Alaska does for you. The sun was so warm, hot actually; I love feeling it hot and burning on my skin. I love actually feeling myself tanning. I imagine that I’m this delicious juicy turkey roasting in the oven. Okay, that was weird, but it’s true, kind of. I love shopping at the outlets in my tank top, shorts and flip flops – IN OCTOBER!!!! You southerners take it for granted. You shouldn’t.
I had a wonderful time with wonderful friends. I have such great true friends and I am so grateful for each one of you. I loved waking up to the sun shining in, having coffee on the porch, listening to great music, laughing, loving, sharing life and just being alive. I had so many wonderful experiences that I will treasure for ever. My mom and dad came to see me and that was so amazing. It has been at least seven years since it’s been just me, my mom and my dad! It’s always been me, cory and the kids. It was so wonderful to get to spend time with just them. The worse part of their visit was watching LSU get smoked by the Gators. But, if we’re going to lose to some one, the Gators are a decent team to lose to. We shopped and ate and walked the pier and on the beach, right where Gabby got married… tear. It was a great experience and bonding moment for us. And when we left to go our separate ways, it was just the same as when I lived in Florida, sad. I wanted to cry and I know they did, too. Why are good byes so hard? I know I’m going to see them again, so why was it so hard to let go of their embraces?
On my way home, landing in Anchorage, we flew over two moose grazing through patches of snow at the end of the runway. It was a reminder of what I was coming back to. It’s not that Alaska is so bad, I’m just a humidity lovin’ southern girl. I love it! I love the mosquitos and the fire ants and the lizards and the snakes and the roaches. I love the river and the ocean. I love airconditioning!! I love the unbreathable heat that hits you like a ton of bricks when you go to get in your car in August. I miss summer nights, sitting on the swing or lying in the hammock and watching the stars – IN SHORTS AND A TANK TOP!! I miss drinking coffee because I love the taste of it not because I’m cold and need something to warm me up. I miss thinking 60 degrees is cold. I miss it. I miss it so much that I cried the first four days that I was back. The only reason I haven’t cried in the past three days, is I haven’t let myself go there in my mind. My flights were so back to back I was boarding as I soon as I got off the previous flight. I had no time to change. When I landed in Fairbanks, where it was 15 degrees, wearing long sleeves and flip flops, we had to exit the plane on the tarmat. Welcome to Alaska!!
I missed my kids like crazy! They missed me a lot, as well. Canaan still tells me how much he missed me when I was gone. That was really hard, but my vacation was much needed. I have no regrets about leaving my kids for two weeks. They survived being alone with their father and he survived being alone with them. It made us stronger. It made me realize how much I do love my kids and want them to be happy and healthy. They are so wonderful! I am the luckiest mom in the world. I love you, my darlings! Grow strong and grounded in the faith of God’s Love.
dammit!! i just burned my mouth with coffee! not just my tongue; my whole frickin’ mouth!! cripes! that sucks. i’m not going to be able to taste all day. oh well, such is life. funny, it jerked my mind out my current situation for about 5 min. thanks, coffee that was too hot. anyway………
isn’t life just so funny? so funny that you just wanna cry? come to think of it, that’s not really funny at all, is it? i find myself with difficult and crucial life changing choices to make. one, in particular, that will change the life of those around me, as well. recently, there have been dark and cold moments in my life. there have been a few people, angels, if you will, that have been closer than a brother or sister (or cuz) to me through this. it means so so so much to me to be able to fully trust that those people have the absolute best intentions for me. they have shown me the true meaning of love. we have shared moments of laughter, moments of tears, and music. it’s ironic that the people that i feel closest in my heart live thousands and thousands of miles away, yet i have felt your love and friendship as it you were sitting across the table from me enjoying cafe au’ lait and beneit’s. i would like to say thank you to those people. i cherish you. i have hidden you in the deepest places in my heart, and there you, my treasure, will always be. i look forward to many more moments in the future. perhaps maybe actually sitting with you, laughing with you, crying with you, and being grateful with you, in person again; just sharing life. i will make my way home, dear friends. then we will eat, drink and be merry. i love you truly.
i have compiled a small list of music that has really helped me through this. it continues to lift my spirits, and i want to share them with you:
religious: Jason Upton
David Crowder - Remedy Club Tour Edition
not yet famous: Laura Marling – Alas I Cannot Swim
Brett Dennen
Greg Laswell – 3 Flights From Alto Nido tracks- that it moves; how the day sounds
Dr. Dog – Fate - the whole cd is great
and my favorite Mason Jennings – In the Ever – Fighter Girl “…come on kiss-a me, keep on kissing me…” okay Mason, if you insist…
ENJOY! i love you always. “be kind, for everyone is fighting a hard battle”
